Thursday, December 22, 2005
doing some last minute shopping later with amy
and maybe movie with ben tonight
my morning started off pretty uh shocking or surprised hmm
ok my horoscope said not to think so much so im not gonna think so much
i was feeling lost last night i actually felt fears in me phobias maybe
i felt like i had lost myself and i know of you out there wishes to see me stand back up on my feet, im sorry for all the disappointment but im trying i will not say im completely over it but yes ive moved on and im not typing this because he came into my mind but because eileen thinks i needa face up to it instead of running away cause its not like me and im bravely facing it myself hmmm yes myself =)
i dun wanna lie to you really but sometimes i wish u could just keep things and ask me yourself not infront of people white lies blah i realize ive lost the ability to lie because you like seeing thru me and guess wat no more lying i will do things the way it is and the truth, trust me the truth coming from my mouth is a little hard to handle =) stop saying im lying cause id slap u the next time u do =)
whenever i think of hurt and pain i think of the both of you, when i think of happiness and sweet memories i think of the 2 of you too.hmm nini was commenting that i like pretty boys and hmm maybe i really do =) on a lighter note i DO NOT HAVE FEELINGS FOR DAVID LEE nope im not attracted, attached, seeing, dating or whatsoever with him OMG david lee YEW.. never =) he just reminds me alot of this guy best frend i use to have =) really i dun wan ppl sprouting nonsense
party at amy's on christmas eve
maybe christmas with stella and jess i miss dem loads and most imptly i miss me =)
lastly deep dark secrets exposed
i drink from the milk bottle =)
sorry for the long entry and david lee DO NOT SPOT MY MISTAKE U IRRITATING SHIT
this is not a permission but a dare
Thursday, December 22, 2005
