she hates you even when shes wasted

2006-01-02T13:48:00.000+08:00

BLOG SHIFTED

www.myflawedperfection.blogspot.com

2005-12-31T18:20:00.000+08:00

waiting for the you i knew hiding deep inside is like waiting for the sunshine in rainy december

USELESS AND DISAPPOINTING

2005-12-31T12:29:00.000+08:00

i felt fear when i realize 2005 will be over in less than 24 hours time. i still have a few things yet to fulfil and i am so not ready for 2006 well at least not now.

david lee told me
its better to be happy for a new year than be sad and whine over the past year

brian told me
its bad luck to bring unfulfilled wishes to the next year

Maine told me
omg edelyn you'd be 18 soon good luck

andrew scott told me
eh cool take your driving license and pick me up from school everyday

victor told me
i wish you all the best in the coming year and i'd be long before i come back again

samantha told me
you will have new things to do in 2006
and new things will happen, whether good or bad
and we'll look back and say, oh this is what happened to me last year and/or a few years back
obviously we'll grow older
don't you think you've wasted 2005 away
i have, so i'm not gonna let 2006 go

shalyn told me
i love you and treasure the ones who treasure you

leo told me
good luck and have fun

charwin told me
good luck better sex partners next year

so yes any last words for me before i begin my 2006 ? anything at all you've regretted not telling me or never had the chance to?

2005-12-30T10:20:00.000+08:00

everytime i dream of you, it'd definitely be a premonition and so far it has never failed me.

happy birthday samsam omg u are like finally 16
FINALLY LEGAL BITCH =Dlove u hugz
sorry for not wishing on the dot i fell asleep =X

Ever wondered if you took things for granted?
cherish those around you before they're gone
true friends never walk out on you, they would cushion your every fall
meet my true friend

i love you even after the outrageous amount of farts
u gave in mere 4 hours
i love you even if you have hair that looks weird
i love you for being there for me =)

meet Mr one of the 20 boyfriends
fwah feels like some celebrity hidden love life
i have too much love to give

meet jonathon he's only 16
and jessilyn's classmate
fu-cking talented arsehole

2005-12-29T14:46:00.000+08:00

have been tagged by sawah again and she insists on me blogging about it
she wants to know my dark secrets ok more like just things abt yourself people don't notice

6 weird idios about edelyn you didn't or might not know

-when im angry and bitching i would throw names around hoping one will hit you
-i am super sneaky and i hate people paying for me be it my bf or friend i'd stuff the money back by hook or by crook*so if u find money somewhere and don't remember putting it there aheh*
-i have this pout where i abuse it to make ppl give in to me and they USUALLY DO =)
-i don't and i mean *DON'T* like to be tickled to me its like a torture or something
-as long as it is a shiny surface i'd check my reflection on it
-i have tons of clothes but i'd never have anything to wear so id be in the same thing over and over AGAIN

anyway

the past 3 days have been FWAHHHHHH

anyway i finally met up with my lovely cousin for a steamboat session
at marina south one word FANTABULOUS the food was yummy but of cause
you need the right company

hmm alot of dem says we look like sisters in this
like hello we are SOMEHOW BLOOD RELATED u know!
shut up i know i look older ok

notice one side is clean and the other is like CHAO DA
why? cos that stupid thing was splattering all over our
beautiful soft hands and MY B.E.A UTIFUL EYE
so i had to shift to the other side to eat
and walk over when i NEEDA COOK

look at my pretty cousin with her 15 dollar bear AHHAHAHAH
ok its not about the present more abt the joy spending it with love ones

headed over to samsam's place after that
while cousin went to meet her extremely busy friend
who had a meeting at 7.30 pm

2 weeks since i went over fwah feels like a long time
miss her like F.A.R.K

a warm hug on a cold cold night

coincidentally everything that day came in twos
my and sammo's happy

knowing my love for strawberries
she got me a sealion*which i like to insist its a fish*
with a strawberry around it
and her crockie sea lion

see the blood resemblance
oh yes i sprayed her DKNY perfume on it
*geez i wonder where i get that idea from hmm*

FYI its a reindeer
i kept asking her wheres the cap
and shes like its not a cat its a REINDEER
YES I KNOW ITS A REINDEER SAM CAP BITCH CAP
*slaps sam*

poor bitch knocked her leg into the wooden bench
and it swell and the bruise SPREAD YEW
like some disease

orh la orh la come kiss kiss
she*passed me the foot*
no not the foot u bitch yr face LOL

2005-12-26T09:34:00.000+08:00

i don't think ever in my life have i ever disappoint someone so badly, they've become numb to it, or even tell me oh i've expected it. so god if u actually exist which i don't think you do but still if u do exist let me ask you, what have i done to deserve being let down so many times, i actually don't feel the pain anymore? i don't feel the heart tearing, or the sudden pain or even tears which i should? it is not ok for me to feel this way, this year wasnt easy really. one of my supposingly best friend betrayed me, flirted with my guy, lost miserably and still think she's right. having people telling me they actually know me more than i do and expects me to do exactly what they say. having the guy i made my life framing me, went thru depression, fall in and out of love again.pardon me for the many YOUS becos this entry isnt about 1 person but a big bunch of assholes

dont console me because i am not hurt, the stupid rainy weather isnt effecting me and ive lost interest dancing in the rain, i don't care if u call him a bastard her a slut, him a wussy her a bitch, him an asshole her a whore

this blog was used to pour out my feelings at least in the past it was of some use now, even if blood drips all over it, it will still be useless.

i am not someone who keeps my feelings inside why suffer alone rant out if you want, i didn't mean to hurt you with things i say but instead u are protecting yourself by hurting me, i make a good gf but a horrible ex gf and an even worse friend.

all ive ever heard was the things ive done that u're unhappy with but i have never once heard u tell me but its alright just don't do it again.

don't ask me what i expect of you, ask yourself what do u expect of yourself because i cant tell u what to do how to walk your life

i ought to hate those who gave me all these pain trust me if i didnt care this entry won't be up here but trust me once more i'm letting all of you go =)

i remember char told me once long ago. thats the thing about u i like most the ability to stand up and love again even after being let down and stepped on.

but char you didn't know it wasn't easy the road to recovery the numerous times i fell down and i had no one but myself.

2005 is drawing to an end

2005-12-25T12:25:00.000+08:00

defination of a dumb bf
she: darling i caught the flu bug
he: oh wow how cool did u keep it in the container cause ive been curious to see how it looks like

whats worse than bombay sapphire mix vodka peach, vodka citrus, ad vodka, jack daniels and coke? or worse than hugging the toilet bowl and puking everywhere but the toilet bowl itself? or worse than playing lick the whip cream off friends sweaty stinky body and spin the bottle?

a fucking hang over and 3 panadol extra

pictures are with amelia will upload when she sends dem to me, steffie called 5 mins ago to tell me we're caught doing stupid things on steve's video sneaky bastard, ahhh i love christmas, its one chance to go wild let your hair down enjoy your night more coming up tonight at jon's place WOOOOOOOH ok im gonna unwrap my presents NOWWWWWWWWWWWW =X

2005-12-25T05:12:00.000+08:00

FYI EDELYN CAN'T HOLD HER ALCOHOL FOR NUTS

while i am still a lil sober i shall blog

parties at amy woooooh and kons and kayu's weeeeee farking joshua scammed me to drink some hard liquor farked up luckily vic finished the vodka for me wooooooh ok, j gave me some hot tea or dunno wat shit yesss i love the presents alotttt i feel so warm so much hugs so many friends all the familiar faces

charwin is farking excited abt his present HAHHA

amelia your gifts are making me cry u are forever so thoughtful so sweet putting in so much effort for the gifts from little detail u seek perfection i love the disc really =) alot im crying

amy u know me best thanks for the pillow and shirt you guys are the best picking me up and all

victor you coming back is the best present u can give me

samantha i miss u =(

ok heading out now BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE may the toilet bowl be with me

blah night

2005-12-24T12:25:00.000+08:00

i realize some of my friends ARE BLIND

2005-12-24T04:13:00.000+08:00

ITS CHRISTMAS EVE TODAY THIS THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY FA LALALALA LA LA LA LA =) was sick this morning and slept the whole day, headed out to jp's hse to watch a vcd =) missed charwin's bbq damn it but weird la i dunno anyone there

HAPPY BDAY TO YOU
YOU ARE BORN IN THE ZOO
WITH THE TIGER AND LION
AND A CHIWAWA LIKE YOU

i got your bday present =D its something you wanted and made so much noise

i got my first christmas present from ela and JP TODAY ok JUST weeeeee =D a lovely tee shirt with the world FEAR on it ok no not those ah lian kinda of tee, fyi JP has good taste.

ok night night

2005-12-23T03:31:00.000+08:00

VICTOR CHONG IS BACK and he brought me back too =) when he came back everyone started slacking, late night supper, late drive, bowling, soccer and bball haha i feel different

he taught me its because i have nth to occupy my mind totally thats why i keep thinking too much if you don't help yourself who will? why wallow in pity why bother =)

the tattoos gonna cost you but the pains for free

quoted jp

2005-12-22T07:57:00.000+08:00

doing some last minute shopping later with amy
and maybe movie with ben tonight

my morning started off pretty uh shocking or surprised hmm
ok my horoscope said not to think so much so im not gonna think so much

i was feeling lost last night i actually felt fears in me phobias maybe
i felt like i had lost myself and i know of you out there wishes to see me stand back up on my feet, im sorry for all the disappointment but im trying i will not say im completely over it but yes ive moved on and im not typing this because he came into my mind but because eileen thinks i needa face up to it instead of running away cause its not like me and im bravely facing it myself hmmm yes myself =)

i dun wanna lie to you really but sometimes i wish u could just keep things and ask me yourself not infront of people white lies blah i realize ive lost the ability to lie because you like seeing thru me and guess wat no more lying i will do things the way it is and the truth, trust me the truth coming from my mouth is a little hard to handle =) stop saying im lying cause id slap u the next time u do =)

whenever i think of hurt and pain i think of the both of you, when i think of happiness and sweet memories i think of the 2 of you too.hmm nini was commenting that i like pretty boys and hmm maybe i really do =) on a lighter note i DO NOT HAVE FEELINGS FOR DAVID LEE nope im not attracted, attached, seeing, dating or whatsoever with him OMG david lee YEW.. never =) he just reminds me alot of this guy best frend i use to have =) really i dun wan ppl sprouting nonsense

party at amy's on christmas eve

maybe christmas with stella and jess i miss dem loads and most imptly i miss me =)

lastly deep dark secrets exposed

i drink from the milk bottle =)

sorry for the long entry and david lee DO NOT SPOT MY MISTAKE U IRRITATING SHIT

2005-12-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

hmm. i woke up in tears but i can't remember my dream
i am missing samsam alot haha dun ask me why
i feel lost yesterday i was sure i knew who i am
but i woke up not knowing myself anymore
this is scary
i actually felt fears in me
fear of? idk i really don't
i feel like driving now but yes i can't drive
i feel like running to sam's hse but she's not there
i feel like shopping but the shops are close
i want a hug but you're not there
i feel like calling brian but he's asleep
must be the emo songs samsam says i listen to too many emo songs hmm

i killed a cockroach =X and i am still trembling thats fear one of my fears

i fear losing love ones
i fear killing a cockroach
i fear the sense of insecurity
i fear loneliness
what more do i fear

2005-12-21T06:07:00.000+08:00

Ok one more fulfilled christmas wish and its from DAVID LEE DA WEI or watever his chinese name i dunno so i anyhow anyway.. dear david waited till 4 am because i specifically asked for MACDONALD's breakfast not lunch dinner supper but its good la =X that made him stay there to study for his term test tml

MEET THE FIRST MEAL OF THE DAY
*awwwwww aint david sweet* well NO and why?

you think he so nice meh BUY ME BREAKFAST AT 4 AM
U DAN GU GU LA=X hes just trying to
blackmail me to return lanjiao to him

meet lanjiao he has 2 other names blue key and lumpy
thou i would love to disagree lumpy does sound cute hmm

OK i am very nice too ok boo those who keep saying
i bully david lee. I FRIED HIM MANTOU WITH EGGS
for breakfast =) aint i sweet =X but sorry no pics of it

OK here is me ENJOYING THE *what do u call that?
its at the tip of my tongue*

OK this is the first time u get to see me with unkept hair
and make up less so shut up

david lee please DOTE ON ME MORE I AM DEFENDING YOU LOSEUR
*i sense another mac's breakfast coming up*

anyway im gonna tok on the phone now night people

HUGZ and good luck to shalyn, david, leo and whoevers having term test this week

2005-12-21T02:48:00.000+08:00

i keep meeting stupid people today TELL ME WHY SOMEONE REALLY

ok im sorry im too bitchy

someone taught me today to not say my god its a lil rude so just say my god my auntie my uncle
hmm long but yes willing to try =) oh yes i have some dinner and dance to attend some police reunion and martins dragging me there lets hope i have fun

ok david lee is coming at 4 am to bring me breakfast and get lanjiao back hmm ok id go fry the man tou =)

2005-12-20T07:08:00.000+08:00

it is 7.11 am in the morning, my ass still hurts i have work at 9.30 and i am entertaining a 27 year old married guy who thinks im the cause of global warming this is funny shit can you please come up with a better pick up line seriously

im ignoring you cos u just activated the bitchiness in me so if u get to read this here is my answer

ok firstly MR you're so hot u must be the reason of global warming i am only 17 yrs old yes u 27 yr old married deprived of sex husband of godknows which unlucky lady if you know its against the law for someone under the age of 18 to enter clubs, second sparks is not an option cos i dun think i have the I LOVE TECHNO AND CANTO LOOK, third borrowing of IC is LA SUP as quoted by the very well known MR Leonard lim, fourth i would have to wait till march to LEGALLY ENTER ZOUK, fifth i dun enjoy getting wasted and pinched in the ass by ugly fellows so there you go thats if you even get to read this

but yes i would still have to thank u for informing me that tattoos are originated to identify dead bodies

weirdo number 2

he: so how many fingers does johnny have
me:thinks *wtf wat a way to say hi* as far as i know 95% of the human population comes with 5 fingers on each hand
he: not for johnny remember johnny two thumbs
me: OMG am i suppose to laugh? its freaking 7.35 am and i have a fool giving me some lame joke JOHNNY TWO THUMB IS A BLOODY TATTOO STUDIO U IDIOT BO LINK LA FARK
i feel like crying and he calls me a failure cos i dun get his supposingly stupid jokes. now you're sorry for being a nuisance? well im glad you know that

2005-12-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

i woke up burning 39 degree puking and crapping

just got back from the doctors he gave me a jab ON MY ASS which is like fucking pain but its to lower my temp and stop me from running to the toilet urg.. i feel like eating samsams noodles now farked up =( anyone willing to cook for this poor sick girl

2005-12-19T02:05:00.000+08:00

yes my christmas wishlist is out

1) a black leather bag - samsam

2) a k box session expenses paid by - jessilyn

3) a steamboat session with- shalyn

4) ~~macdonalds breakfast at 4am~~- david lee

5) tiffany and co ring - brian

6) ~~take neoprints~~ - char Done

7) shopping spree - stella

8) a digital cam lumix Fx 9 - anyone

8) LV bag, gucci wallet, zara's top, mangos collection, tiffany and co bracelet, dior boots- COOKIE =X

9) and leonard lim please ask me yourself =)

since i have so much time i was thinking of making the christmas presents by myself hmm =) i am feeling the ITS A SEASON TO BE JOLLY TRA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA

ok i needa sleep working tml

im glad you like the present =) and tonight was great or rather ended with me feeling surprised and shock =) HUGZ

2005-12-18T19:06:00.000+08:00

it took me so long to understand ....

sam's flying off tonight im so gonna miss her alot im gonna send her off

2005-12-18T07:22:00.000+08:00

ahem my conscience is killing me as im typing this revenge is very sweet but david lee is too nice i hate it when people are nice i dun have the heart to disturb them farked up so i shall not blog abt it ahhhhhhh KILL ME

2005-12-18T00:28:00.000+08:00

i have been tagged by samsam yes so lets see what 5 random facts about me i can come up with

1) i am bisexual yes but i am not attached or attracted to samantha. i don't see the need to announce to the world that i am

2) i love camwhoring as in i take lots of pictures so please live with it

3) i love dancing in the rain i don't care if you think rain water is la sup becos it may have evaporated from some panty in jurong

4) i cannot wait to turn 18 and take my car license cause my whole life will change dramastically

5) i eat and i sleep more than alot of people i know and yes i lose more weight when i sleep than exercise call me weird but thats how my body works

ok now to tag 5 idiots to continue

1) jessilyn
2)jimmy
3)cookie
4)shalyn
5)ching hoon

today i met up with our very well known mr charwin tan
we were suppose to find his tights for his demo tml but we can't find it farked up

so

we ate at HANS and i realize
he has a big mouth he practically
stuff that rock melon into it

we took love getty was
the second time first was
way back when we first met =)

he has this new phrase
where he would say
*im stubborn not happy beat me arh*
and i would say BITE YOU CAN?

was taken with my hp while
waiting for the dumb pictures
to be printed

he was pouting i think because
i said he's old not cute *you stole
my pout* so i said im not falling for it
and he covered his mouth

one more thing we have
besides the boxers
the MACDONALD'S BAG
hes a macdonald lover =D

was suppose to wait with him till er chang
came at 10.30 but he came at 12 instead
we're gonna burn his bike
and yes i had loads of fun today

2005-12-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

i had my hair highlighted today =)

yes i smell nice haha i always do

your stares are giving me the creep

ta na xiao xin yi yi de xi ni de tou fa rang ni jue de bei teng de gan jue

crap went to k box with xiao k, apple and his frend i have no idea wat name but yes we had fun
we're like the noisiest group around and i bite xiao K hahaha amazing he didnt scream in pain

the last song made me tear

farked up

2005-12-15T10:42:00.000+08:00

i am at my dad's office now i swear the damn internet is so slow even the ant crawled faster along the 90 cm table faster than it loads KNN(*^*%&^*$^%# pardon my vulgarities this is caused by the lack of beauty sleep.

i can't believe i look so gu niang like some office girl ok not that conservative but yes i am so gu niang my mum thought i was going for some fashion show. AI MEI SHI NU REN DE TIAN XING MA cannot arh

lesson one

never wear heels when u're tired there might be evil stairs luking around to make u fall that is what happen to yours truly

lesson two

never wear short skirts becos u get stupid 50 yr old perverts trying to upskirt u or stare at your ass when u walk i swear if my heels weren't expensive i would have used it and slap his face * alright i sound f-ing bitchy* but who cares im tired and deprived of sleep

lesson three

never wear contact lens when you don't get enough sleep or rather any sleep at all becos it will make u feel worse trust me u dun wanan go thru it

lesson four

get a farking bf who drives yes to pick u up from work damn it *ok im joking* a bf aint there to just drive me around

blah and i am stuck here till 3 pm geez

2005-12-15T08:19:00.000+08:00

i look fucking haggard knn()&((*(^&*$%^$%^^& i need my sleep but i can't sleep god bless my tiny soul or rather bless me with energy for today

wish me luck people

2005-12-15T05:15:00.000+08:00

AH SIP SIP wanna bribe me with one lollipop so ke gao

i got faithful readers who are willing to pay more to get inside info ok

i slap u den u know ni neh neh eh tell me sleep ahhh behind SIP SIP tsk tsk

ok lets all go sleep together ok rephrase that let's all go to bed at the same time that sounds better

2005-12-14T18:47:00.000+08:00

please don't feel envious cos i don't care =)

2005-12-13T19:28:00.000+08:00

i woke up in tears i hate premonitions i need to tok to someone before i burst down and cry this feeling of not having yr best friend there or someone sucks

2005-12-13T04:27:00.000+08:00

i had a heart to heart session with Jean paul just now and i find it easy to talk to him maybe he's more relax kinda of person jokes and yet be so serious at the same time

that aside

im sorry jess for throwing my tantrum at you today, i didn't mean it but i just wish u didn't tell me i know u told me becos u see the need to or rather u might want me to face some reality but... its really not how things work in my way its only making me feel worse making me think and i hate thinking really i don't wanan waste brain fuel thinking of unimportant things

maybe deep down somewhere inside my heart has never forgiven you maybe i never will or maybe someday

but i wish that day never comes cause i like this feeling

im tired good night

2005-12-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

Men should read this! I got it from FHM.com

Blowjob Etiquette For Men (as stated by women)

1. First and foremost, we are not obligated to do it

2. Extension to rule #1 - So if you get one, be grateful.

3. I don't care WHAT they did in the porn video you saw, it is not standard practice to cum on someone's face.

4. Extension to rule #3 - No, I DON'T have to swallow.

5. My ears are NOT handles.

6. Extension to rule #5 - Do not push on the top of my head.

7. Deep throat - do you really WANT puke on your dick?

8. I don't care HOW relaxed you get, it is NEVER OK to fart.

9. Having my period does not mean that it's "hummer week" - get it through your head - I'm bloated and I feel like shit so no, I don't feel particularly obligated to blow you just because YOU can't have sex right now.

10. Extension to #8 - "Blue Balls" might have worked on high school girls - if you're that desperate, go jerk off and leave me alone with my Midol.

11. If I have to pause to remove a pubic hair from my teeth, don't tell me I've just "wrecked it" for you.

12. Leaving me in bed while you go play video games immediately afterwards is highly unadvisable if you would like my behaviour to be repeated in the future.

13. If you like how we do it, it's probably best not to speculate about the origins of our talent. Just enjoy the moment and be happy that we're good at it. See also rule #2 about gratitude.

14. No, it doesn't particularly taste good. And I don't care about the protein content.

15. No, I will NOT do it while you watch TV or while you are driving.

16. When you hear your friends complain about how they don't get blow jobs often enough, keep your mouth shut. It is inappropriate to either sympathise or brag.

17. Just because "it's awake" when you get up does not mean I have to "kiss it good morning"

HAHA ok this is good i got it off xiaxue's blog but she got it off FHM.com

my perfect bf

2005-12-12T18:04:00.000+08:00

my perfect boyfriend

would be willing to dance in the rain with me hold me close in the rain and plant the worlds most amazing kiss *not becos hes a good kisser but becos hes the one i love*
would go food shopping with me at carrefour pushing me in the cart and buy out the store
would bake and cook with me * it doesnt matter if you can't bake or cook at long as u're willing to try and make me happy*
would tell me im not fat im cuddly and he likes me the way i am
would be truthful about everything and not hiding cos you think it will hurt me
would snuggle with me under the blanket watching horror movie and attempting to scare me time and again
would call me in the middle of the night just becos he forgot to wish me good night before he sleeps
would forgo clubbing cos he knows he has a gf who's insecure staying by her just to reassure
would play and joke around with me like we're the best buddies on earth
would write me a note and place it beside me before he heads to work
would go thru desperate measures to put the smile back on my face
would not attempt to carry my bag becos its damn gay
would go for late night drive around singapore just to put me to sleep
have bubble bath with me
remembers my birthday and gives me a surprise so touching i'd tear

behind this perfect guy lies the imperfection i would fall in love with

2005-12-12T02:13:00.000+08:00

Meet my wife pudding

amelia said we look freaking alike do we?

i love my wife

do not mess with us

don't attempt to kiss the driver when he's driving

shes in my boxers and shirt at CHANGI AIRPORT

2005-12-11T18:22:00.000+08:00

WHY CAN'T MEN DECIDE? BECAUSE THEY WANT TO BE THE GOOD GUY? BUT NO BY NOT HAVING THE HEART TO HURT YOU, THEY ACTUALLY HURT YOU THE MOST

FOR ONCE I AM GOING TO SAY I AM NOT OK AND YOUR STUPIDITY ISNT MAKING ME FEEL ANY BETTER, IM SORRY

2005-12-11T16:59:00.000+08:00

BETRAYAL of someone i thought i could trust
KILL ME when i'm not around
CALL to make some noise in the middle of the night
DROPPING HINT when they can just ask me straight
I AM FEELING FARKED UP I DUN EVEN FEEL IT ANYMORE

you have just spoilt my happy day WOW WEEEE how sweet BLAH

2005-12-11T05:16:00.000+08:00

i have never had so much fun in a long time, biggest hug to david lee and samsam

yes ho seh first time drive accord out and get some road block and i bluff the policeman david lee was my brother LOL

as i lie down to sleep the surroundings felt so familiar the hug felt so familiar but its not its a whole new hug from a whole new person

david lee tried to stuff 5 dollar into my boobs* wondering if i have a pocket is a si beh lap sup excuse*
david lee taught us driving sacrificing his own car
david lee brought his balls to drive accord
david lee went almost 100 km with accord
david lee is the nicest son in the world

samsam was super hyper
samsam took lovegetty with me today
samsam put her head out of the window and looked like some curious dog
samsam wore my ducky boxers to the airport
samsam squeeze with me in the front seat
samsam's kim mor must have been the cause of us getting checked

2005-12-10T11:54:00.000+08:00

it is freaking 11 am in the morning and i cant sleep anymore i wonder which idiot would be awake this time besides charwin, anyway samsam is very much asleep

yesterday was pretty much about eating and eating and eating oh we did visit the gym and suana thou

anyway charwin gave us a new nickname, pearly and pudding we were named after the 2 hamsters in his pet shop CBBKNN&*^&*$^&$# but nevermind it sounds cute =D

pics will be up later im too tired to think

2005-12-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

AT THE BEGINNING
you don't have to read its only for leo

i am not someone good with words and i dunno how to use the right words to type how i feel

i know you read my blog and this, gonna be very long post is just for you leo

im not writing this post becos i still feel u, i am writing becos i suddenly had the urge to read our first conversation where things were so simple, where we don't know anything about each other.
the times where talking to me was more important than dota, where u would inform me before u game tell me before u sleep and msg me just to tell me im on yr mind just seconds before you sleep. i guess i began falling for u when i saw how u remembered everything i said all my habits all my actions but today when u asked me whats my full name and have clearly forgotten about it, i know its not the same anymore

gone was the one who promised to dance in the rain with me back when we were just frends, gone was the its a date and lets have pepper lunch, gone were the days where jealousy doesnt exist, gone were the days where we talked about what LOVE MEANT to us, gone were the spamming of the grass was greener on the other side, gone were the 75 cents and please watch out for cars on the road, the time where i would feel u holding my hand so close to your heart when we cross the road,gone were the days u asked me if i love chocolates and finding out we have things in common,gone were the days were cinnamon meants so much to u u would carry it everywhere,gone were the sex stories of hitch hiking on the mountains and den.....,gone were the days i was the only one u send the first women mtv,gone were the days u asked about every question i posted on bulletin, gone were the days u asked if i missed you, gone were the days where u would read all my testis and laugh at me, gone were the days u would be sweet to me, the times where u would tell me please dun sleep yet i wanan call you.

back when i was your favourite distractions who got DEMOTED, the days where u asked me why was it sweetest distractions for the fact u are so sweet u gave me butterflies in my tummy, back den where u told me jo and juan were the 2 u loved the most, back when u like every single pic cos i was in it, where my favourite mistake was to take a deep liking for edelyn, gone were the days were u were toking on the phone and suddenly thinking of shit u like me, back where u would be curious to know every thing about me what my favourite was

ok if i continue toking abt the past i would never get to the now

so now its kinda messed up where i feel like u're avoiding to see me for some reasons, i dunno LOlz i guess why i couldnt give u up in the past was becos we never had a normal friendship so i guess i just cant accept the way things change when we broke up but to hell with it its over

so after u read this when u get home

leonard lim would u give me 2 weeks to know u all over again as a friend =) if yes =D please leave me a msg on msn and if u don't i'd take it as frends no more yeah =)

2005-12-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

haha was toking to jimmy and i suddenly came up with the kinds of guys i will never date

- guys who plays soccer and watches soccer regularly
- guys who watches tv the whole bloody day when hes on off or on leave
- guys who are super lazy to bathe
- guys who are even more ai swee than me
- guys whose room looks like one compared to a small boys
- guys who have golden streaks and center parting
- guys who make chinese they're main language
- guys who attempt to make me take bus
- guys who don't drive
- guys who club especially at zouk MAJOR TURN OFF =)
- guys who are super possesive nono
- guys who cry more than me
- and GUYS WHO PLAY ONLINE GAMES be it CS or warcraft or maple or even worse DOTA NONO

easy wat right expectations HIGH MEH LOLLLLLL

2005-12-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

ok alot of ppl have been asking whats the meaning behind this ring, why does edelyn go hysterical when she realize its missing, why does she keep wearing it, why does she keep staring at it

all because

this ring contains all the memories i ever have of him all the happiness and sadness all the tears and pain from the day he put it on for me till the day i took it off and lost it and now ive found it again, this ring has seen all my pain soaked in so much tears i dun think id have enough to cry in future, this ring went with me thru the days he hurt me till the day he wants me back till the day he hated me, till the day i see him with another girl, till the day he laid on my laps as i stroke his hair to sleep, the days where i have to bear the truth of him sleeping with another girl, till the day i let him go. i remember back den when i first lost this ring i cried for days on end until that day when samsam came over and i found it, there i slipped it on and it has been on my finger till now, that special finger he put it on that finger maybe no one can ever replace , till now when i find it missing i would shout and scream and run around like a mad women looking for it, it gives me a sense of security its like there to protect me becos back when i was with him i never felt security i felt that i could lose him anytime but when i look at the ring it calms me down it reminds me that hes not mine to even begin with.

im sharing this becos he is my deepest darkest secret and he was so very special

and i guess maybe one day if i meet another someone who is equally special or even more and if he asks me to maybe i will be willing to take it off

who knows =)

2005-12-08T17:34:00.000+08:00

geez i am getting old age senile dementia kenneth just tell me his num awhile ago and i FORGOT yes i have found another kuku to go with me to zouk out =D and since shangri la hotel is so expensive and we stay so far he suggested sleeping in bushes NO WAY i am going back to sam's hse to sleep =D how fun is this i am going with samsam sabrina wong cheok and his group of frends and kenneth and his frends wweeeeeeeeeeee bigbig group ahhaha ok maybe i will make an exception lets all get wasted but with diluted beer? no way get drunk before going in is a good idea hmmm...

kenneth suggested going together since we stay near and the prob is we dun have each others num and i asked him SO WAT u waiting for me to ask for yr num ah wat a guy sheiz

kenneth: excited sial
edelyn: eh do u need me to ask for your number
edelyn:what a guy
kenneth:i WAS about to ask incase you dunno
kenneth:you too gan cheong la
edelyn: WAS yes WAS ahh u sure took u LONG to ask
kenneth:wah lao first time somebody use SUCH A pick up line on me to get my no
kenneth:"eh we go Zoukout tgr" -__"
edelyn: excuse me arh i TOLD u lets meet there and u assumed i say we go TOGETHER
edelyn:aiya u think too much
kenneth: wahaha ok la heres my number
kenneth: 9*******
kenneth: you going back to frend's hse after that
edelyn: uh huh
kenneth: SHIT this means i have to go back TAMP ALONE
edelyn: WELL U CAN SLEEP IN THE BUSHES alone with those hantus

jessilyn is suppose to be to be here now but i have no idea WHERE THE HELL SHE IS

leo thanks so much for forgetting my full name and age please go bang the wall and die no seriously
*noted i din type with a single haha*

2005-12-08T00:28:00.000+08:00

ahhhh tiring day went shopping with samsam and her mumsie from zara to mango to topshop to forever 21 geez tiring but yes i BOUGHT ALOT OF STUFF spent like 200 plus this is life i tell u

finally tried pepper lunch with samsam not that fantabulous thou kinda disappointed but hey i had good company =D samsam cleared her food and i was too full to finish goodness gracious, headed to cold storage got our yummilicious bens&jerrys and went over to her place to slack been a week since i stayed over i miss her mum's cooking umm watched madagascar and slacked grow fat with ice cream i have a fetish for giraffes now they are SOOOOOOOOOO cute ok i am gonna sleep soon gonna book zouk out ticks with samsam tml

and ZOUK OUT HERE WE COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe

2005-12-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

i haven had a proper dinner with my family for a long time so tonight i dragged mum and dad gave bro a call and ordered dem to go out for dinner

hurhur im the princezz thats why went out for seafood it is uber delicious yum we had like curry fish head, kangkong, cereal prawn, some tofu and fried pig trotters can u imagine how many calories there are but never mind will be going for a swim later =)

headed down to shop and save to buy some daily ness i think we brought out the whole store, geez ice creams, chocolates, shampoos, i am so gonna pamper myself spa indulgence

ice cream ummmmmmm i wonder if i can feast on dem in the pool? ahahaha

ok ciaoz

2005-12-06T13:20:00.000+08:00

was talking to my dearest cousin about christmas and new years celebration and realized
we aint looking forward to anything

i remember when we were young we dreaded life waking up at 5 am to go to school coming home with tons of homeworks canning and sleeping time at 10 pm i really hated it back den but den that was when life was the purest the simpliest in life, where we would spend christmas and new years with our family snatching for the nintendo with cousins and those those pretty pretty dresses we look so cute in on chinese new year, our steamboat reunion

i remember those days where we would have fights with one another be it over a barbie doll or bullying the other somehow there was no need for sorries in the past all we needed was a smile and come lets play

sorry comes in many forms it doesnt have to be said sometimes actions shows all but in the adult word sorry means everything, things are no longer simple

as we grow old, the simplicity in life fades away ppl change friends turn enermies we make new frends we drift apart. from all the things we tok abt wen we see each other on street became just a smile and i gtg bye, there isnt time for us to understand everyone i guess all we could do it just move on to another phrase.

remember all the lil crushes on the cute lil boy in class back den all those lil notes and hankies for dem to clean they're mouths all those sweet smiles and share candies with one another those stand up for u when other ppl bullies u, has all turn into evil motives bad intentions and heartbreaks love can be so simple but human's mind is making it complicated

2005-12-05T15:37:00.000+08:00

i was so mad yesterday i thought a stroll might do me good but no i walked from my place to BEDOK and walk back alone, the night wind the morning dew, life is so beautiful. green plants everywhere ppl rushing to work wondered why i didnt see kids in school uniform and it suddenly
dawn on me that its DECEMBER holidays hurhur =D

went home and dad said there's a sale going on and asked if i wanted to go WHY NOT dad wants to spend moolah on me den i shall go

things i bought
- 3 pairs of shoes
-3 extremely cute undies
-4 boxers for my bro
- face sponge
-towels
-2 tops
-2 bottoms

a total of 300 dollars hurhur

sorry the tops bottoms and towels are in the wash

2005-12-05T09:51:00.000+08:00

the women after never the women before

2005-12-05T01:52:00.000+08:00

IF YOU DISLIKE ME ITS MIND OVER MATTER I DON'T MIND AND YOU DON'T FUCKING MATTER

i have many ppl questioning the reason why im doing stuffs adeline won't do well becos im not adeline im edelyn and yeah right its not only a name wat u think i suka suka change some name? there is a reason behind things i do even thou there are times its a spur of a moment decision, well guess what anger leads one to do stupid thing you see this*pointing to my expression* its called putting on an act

dun try to come to my blog and find some answers well u can just jolly well ask me personally and if i am in a good mood maybe id tell u =)

i am gonna roam the streets alone now

leave me alone

2005-12-04T14:57:00.000+08:00

yesterday night was fun fun fun

david lee came over to accompany me how sweet eh

sent jessilyn home and went for supper at simpang he is so full of nonsense i tell you
anyway any of you know wat DUM is ? i seriously have no idea but i would love to find out
walked back to jessilyn's house and slacked by the poolside for awhile i tell you that place is KAN hot and david lee mistook the sound of Mrt trains to those of aeroplanes and he was looking up HAHAHAHAHAH si be funny. we couldnt take the heat anymore and drove to bedok reservoir and apparently there is no U turn into the carpark and we had to make a BIGBIG round cos david forgot to bring his balls to do an illegal U turn, upon parking we saw this lorry with curtains and engine on sipping tsk tsk, slacked by the beach side and feed some mozzies tok some cock smoke some ciggies and we could take it no more. Went to 7 eleven to get a drink thinking of where to go next singapore is like so small so i suggested sentosa or mount faber but that loseur driver has no idea how to get there, dav suggested town at 2.30 am in the morning i wonder whats there to see in town at that time geez.

decided to just try our luck drove straight to PIE and somehow got to lavendar and he suggested going to that sip sip park he went with the guys the other time BUT HE DOESNT KNOW HOW TO GET THERE, my god so we had to just try our luck and realize we got further and further and there i saw sentosa and harbour front and mount faber before reaching labrador park it is KAN far and i see some stupid ppl playing badminton at 3 am in the morning and got hit by the shuttlecock directly at her eye. the view is indeed breathetaking but i was a lil too tired to enjoy and when i get tired my nonsensical side of me will come up and i will do some stupid things and say stupid stuff Right david LOl, i was bugging him to let me drive thru the whole journey but i had no idea how to operate a manual car, so david had to teach me how to even start it but i was way too tired to asorb anything and i fell asleep on the way home

things i found out about david lee
* he can't stand the sun
* he sings real well so well it puts me to sleep
* he has long long long cockroach fringe back in seconday school and has to get up at 5 am to start doing his hair
*he hates wearing jeans
*he claims he walks with wind but no matter how i see it still looks beng to me
*he like wearing those black trial slippers which are so beng
*he tried to call those indians at simpang siao eh
*he has this mind set where he thinks he needa lose weight
*he is uber nice to come down and acc u when u're down his advices may not work but he listens and thats all that matters
*he hates clubbing squeezy dancefloors and has been into zouk less than 5 times
*he doesnt like ppl to pay for him he'd stuff the money back by hook or by crook
*he is the only person i cant bear to lie to
*he hates washing the dishes cos the smell of food and soup will produce this smell that will activate his vomit organ watever Lol

sweet eh? any single cais out there i can intro him to =D

2005-12-03T09:46:00.000+08:00

(editted)

i learnt a big lesson today =)

ive learn what it is to self cherish even if he doesnt
ive learn to begin finding my independance
ive learn what friends are for
ive learn bfs aint everything who needs dem when u have frends like samsam
ive learn to find happiness from another angle
ive learn to accept the fact that its over and i have to move on
ive learn to take things a lil easy

love is when you let a person go seek his own happiness no matter how much u love him =)

2005-12-02T16:43:00.000+08:00

Today i am gonna show u the hideous pictures of me growing up

This is my passport photo mind you way back when i was in primary six

me when i was in sec one back where i still look so innocent and yes FAT

sec 2 notice i still have the same hairstyle

sec 3 aint much of a diff thou

beginning of sec 4

middle of sec 4

by the end of sec 4 i look like this

beginning of this year

1 mth ago

now

2005-12-02T08:06:00.000+08:00

happy 21st bday le oo finally 21 the golden key to adulthood which means freedom and of cos responsibility i wish you all the best in your coming years =)

2005-12-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

since wednesday till now i have slept in a total of barely 5 hours my fucking god
im constant woken up by thoughts twice in an hour

and now im funny some fever i feel awful anyone to cuddle me to sleep =D hahah geez

dominic is damn cute right samsam =D

thanks brian for the lovely earrings but still i would prefer my tiffany ring u shit LOl anyway its the thought that counts the earrings are so shu nu and bloody expensive, stop splurging your money on me u're going back in 2 days its gonna be like the end of the world for me =(

ok i think id go lie down and get some sleep my head is spinning spinning

2005-12-01T10:37:00.000+08:00

If any of the following statements apply to you, hightlight/bold/italize it.
Then post.

i have a cell phone.
i have friends that use me.
i am an only child.
i love dangly earrings.
i love cold weather.
i'm obsessed with the computer.
i have shot a gun before.
i can't live without music.
i have no tolerance of ignorant people.
i have ridden on a motorcycle before.
i'll be in this town forever.
i've been to 5 other countries.
i get annoyed easily.
i eventually want kids.
i have neat handwriting.
i have more than a few horrible memories.
i am addicted to chocolate.
i am an atheist.
i love airplane rides.
i love taking pictures.
i hate people who are fake.
i can be mean when i want to.
my parents care about my grades.
one of my best friends is a girl.
i have way too many wallets.
i'm obsessed with lip ~~gloss~~ balm.
i am easy to talk to.
i would never eat raw fish.
i cry easily.
i hate when people are late.*ah yes im often late too but WHO CARES*
i procrastinate.badly
i love winter.
i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
i love to sleep.
i wish i were smarter.
i'm afraid of flying.
i hate drama.
i bite my nails.
i have been on an 8 hour drive.
i never fight with my parents.
i love the beach.
i have never had the chicken pox.
i have gone out in public in my pajamas.
i can't control my emotions.
i have a best friend.
i have moved more than once.
i truly love my friends.
i have (had) braces.
i have never broken a bone.
i hate my computer.
i love girls that play the drums.
i state the obvious.
i'm a happy person.
i love to dance.
i love to sing.
i love cleaning my room.
i tend to get jealous very easily.
i love cute underwear.
i love night better than day.
i don't like to study for tests.
i have been on the phone for over 5 hours.
i am too forgiving.
i have a horrible sense of direction.
i miss elementary school.
i'm a daddy's boy/girl.*anyone who knows me will know that*
i love the color pink.
i love to sew.
my eye color changes.
i ~~should see~~ am seeing a therapist.
i played on a girls sports team.
i become stressed easily.
i hate/detest liars.
i love the smell of rain.
i love my family.
i hate needles.
i am a perfectionist.
i always wanted to learn to play the drums.
i hate the feeling of failure.
i have friends in other countries.
i know how to cook.
i can be quite selfish.
at times, i still act like a little kid.
i have food allergies.
i love to read.
i wish i were more motivated for school.
i love getting stuff in the mail.
i have problems with letting go of old feelings.
i hate being alone.
i love summer.
i love the weekends.
i love black eyeliner.
i think i'm a looker.
i type with one hand.
i live in a one storey house.
i wear make-up.
i have never rode on an underground subway.
i can't swim.
i have bad memories.
i go to church.
i sing in the shower.
i hate cheerleaders.
i usually get what i want.
i have been on stage before.
i love roller coasters.
no one knows my full story of my life.
i am close to my parents.
i don't have a curfew.

yes u have been tagged i got tagged by sarah

2005-12-01T08:21:00.000+08:00

Sam is suppose to be coming over at 8 am to bring me good food but now its 8.21 and she is asleep at home sheiz

i had a suddenly craving for macdonald's breakfast uh huh im gonna change and walk to loyang point all alone to eat how saddening thou i only slept for 5 hrs but i feel energetic so many things to do today my gawd, brian is fast asleep beside me squeezing me to the side of the bed sheiz guys.

yessss i drove brian's evo last night HAHAHAH ok it scared the shit out of him he wished there were like 5 extra seat belt and 2 air bags HAHAH HEY I AM NOT THAT BAD RIGHT *pOUtZ* *sajiao* ok i wanna buy a pet any kind soul out there would wanna get me a bulldog LOL =X *POUTZ* bulldogs are cute

ok gonna buy macs now, before i get lazy umm =)

2005-11-30T22:51:00.000+08:00

(modified)

have i ever been mad at u ? as in FUMING MAD FUCKING MAD i wish i can throw u off the fucking cliff or wish i get some amnesia so i can forget i ever knew u

i hate the fucking way i care you don't, i hate the way you brush me aside after picking me up time and again, i hate the way u just don't seem to feel that i actually can be angry too, i hate the way u're not letting me move on, i hate the fucking way u pop into my mind every 10 minutes its getting irritating, i hate the way u know exactly what im toking abt but can just ignore it, i hate it wen its interrupting my life where whatever i seem to do seems wrong , i hate the way u can just put my tears there and think nothing of it

i feel farked up i wanna cry but my tears just won't come down

im tired la i wish i can just close my eyes and die

sometimes i can just hate u out of no where and yet be so sweet to u the next time geez contradicting i won't call this love its just i dunno i blow hot and cold when i feel like it, i guess thats why my frends dun really understand me for the things i do cannot be explained, be nice to u? i'd be letting myself down, be mean to u? i cant bear to, love u? no i don't i just dun feel special anymore

see doesnt this paragraph crash with the one on top sighhhh

2005-11-30T08:42:00.000+08:00

i have been talking to charwin online since 2 am and its 8.40 now my god 6 hours beat my record been a long time since i last tok to him sigh =)

2005-11-30T04:20:00.000+08:00

what can i say 2005 has been the best and the worst year of my life

why so?

cos i met a guy who loved me with everything

and broke his heart for

a guy i loved so much yet

broke my heart over and over again

took what felt like a thousand years to get over

made a new friend called amos but i called him cookie instead one of the nicest guy around

took up make up with my best frend stella

went from this

to this

got a job at arran aromatics and met the best gay colleague ever
i dun have a pic with eve thou

another colleague who changed my life vivian

meet my uber cute hairstylist ben

another called florence

reunited with my cousin shalyn

us wen we were young

to us now been a long 5 years
and we had to reunite at my uncle's funeral

met someone special thru fate and charwin

someone so amazing we clicked quite well since the first time we saw each other

the only one who is daring enough and loves the camera as much as i do

to go skinny dipping with me

to baring her skin with me

she brought out the female side of me that ive never seen before
she brought my confidence out

samantha darling and me

met someone special who took away my darkness and fear and replaced with smile

someone i made my everything
the second guy i truly loved in 17 years of my life

someone who made me feel special from deep inside
someone who allowed me to look at life differently

to the guy who still chose to break my heart
and yet i still love

met 2 new frends through le oo

trust me i would never wanna lose dem

david lee

and

derrick choy

ok some self pics now

went from this

to this

to this

to this

and finally to

will be editted soon to carry on

2005-11-30T00:45:00.000+08:00

ok toking to david lee is fun really

i remember the first time i saw him my was i scared of him he looked so unfriendly
now hes like as harmless as a fly *PIAK*

you can talk about anything under the sun with him he will take away the sadness and bring in alot of sunshine and NO I DUN LIKE DAVID LEE IN THAT WAY, hes just a super nice guy i would consider more like a brother

i was telling him how hanging out with dem has changed me unintentionally

in the past when i tell my mum about something i would go

Mum: this is super irritating look at this guy he deserve to die
now? wa mi this is si be du lan look at his lan jiao bin die bastard die

bro: hoy stop whacking me la
now? KNN CBB stop it la kan pain u know na ma

dad: yes daddy u called?
now: SI MI LAN uhhh yes dad

i have become so vulgar SAD and the worst thing i cannt control myself to nto say dem sheiz but nevertheless they've been the best thing that happened to me this year =) of cos getting to know my cousin again is better than that and knowing sam but yes i catogorize dem under the same thing so uh huhh

2005-11-29T22:24:00.000+08:00

this sucks i slept thru samsam and brianyani's call this sucks really i woke up with 80 miss calls how bad is that suppose to be my apologises

u know if i ever date again i'd never let dem know i actually have a blog, i dun wan dem knowing things abt me thru blogs and start thinking otherwise about my very farked up life

you want constant love care and attention
she wants self privacy

thanks to you shes learn to keep alot of secrets within till now everything i type here are just superficial cos the shit shes going through inside u'll never understand im tired of hearing shit like come on i know u well guess wat you don't none of you do.

victor chong made my day today awwwwwwwww been a long time since someone made me fly real high HAHAHHA

ok im hungry and i cant go on a diet says victor so im gonna get some food =D

2005-11-29T05:59:00.000+08:00

lie beside her
hug her tight
and kiss her forehead
*whispers those 3 magical words*

its just that simple

easily contented

wat bullocks

2005-11-28T04:33:00.000+08:00

i have a loseur ex bf really right le oo, mwahaha that loseur came down to take his stussy ring home before i cause any more damages to it =X

why a loseur u may ask becos.
-hes scared of wax
-hes scared of hot half boil eggs
-hes scared of tickles
-he doesnt allow me to crack his knuckles
-he owes me pepper lunch
-he doesnt let me win in JI KO PA
-he blames me for his leaking aircon* wat an asshole*

him and my *BROTHER*

but since hes so nice to get me some bloody hot mentos and my favourite fruitips i shall forgive him for being a loseur.

yes as usual he brings out almost all the emocons in me. he makes me smile, laugh, pout,pissed,shout and tears

and yes he is still the nicest to hug its addictive dun try CANNOT TRY

enough of him now its me and samsam's turn

continued from the previous previous post when i had a stay over at sam's place
being a good gf i rushed down to her place with no make up on and chocolates to surprise silly her

she was so happy she couldn't stop gobbling dem up

this is a picture of my beautifully manicured nails and that stussy ring

ok do u know how to tell when u're hungry?
when u find your girl frend's thighs very tempting to bite yes that was wat happen to me and poor samsam had to get her ass off her bed to cook me something

look at this papa and the mistress owww i love big eggs

found this bag of puny oranges with this sticker saying some something banana WTF BANANA mwahaha i cant stop laughing at it

im fasinated with the arrangements of pot covers dun ask me why

i was so hungry i didnt bother snapping away at the delicious food

but after food

i gave my darling a facial which i ended up slapping her face according to the tempo of the music and squashing her face

and

this is the only time where u get to see the hideous side of me and samsam

i kinda love this pic actually i was using my hp and she with her fantabulous camera

NEVER attempt to drink some water during a face mask i took almost 5 mins to get a *SIP* of water

LAUGH all you want because

WE ARE ACTUALLY PRETTY WITHOUT THE FACE MASK
*sorry la fark i didnt take some glamourous pic of us after it BUT STILL*

i have dozen of ppl saying we look alike do we?

2005-11-27T21:02:00.000+08:00

it maybe good to contradict but only to a certain extend

somethings i wish i was straight forward instead of being indecisive it would have been super easy if u tell me how u feel i hate guessing games it makes me du lan

2005-11-27T06:07:00.000+08:00

fark i wish samsam was here with her fantabulous camera to capture this beautiful moment im so touched im gonna cry*jess im gonna kill u cos u took my camera*

why so?

imagine having a craving for steamboat *DEMANDING* your frend to whip it up for u in 2 hrs time and he agrees willingly

picks u up from your house and told u :sorry i cant get steamboat
disppointed? yes den u reached his place open the door and u see a POT OF HOT STEAMING SOUP on the table and your cousin goes SURPRISE CAN u feel it Lol

sighh im so touched thanks Jer and brian for all these fantabulous food rahhh im gonna put on weight but who cares fishballs crabstick hotdogs veggies =( soBz

they are like the love of my life besides my dad and bro of cos ive grown up with dem
they have seen the ugliest side of me the old me the me now
tell me which guy would* note bfs not counted*
- put a finger down yr throat so u could puke those yucky stuff out instead of choking and die
- who would hug and kiss u after u've puked or after gym sweating and fark
- who would pop by your house with hot soup when u're down with flu
-who would be so nice as to be your punching bag as and when you like it
-who would be so willing as to drive you around when you're bored
-who would stuff you with money to spend
-who would bring you on shopping trips and holidays just to get over a nasty break up
-who would tell you that he loves everything about u even your make up less face and bad breathe early in the morning
-who would get wasted with you and run around with u like a mad idiot
-who would piggy back u when your heels are killing u *even in the middle of orchard road*
-who would put u first even before soccer, online games and best frends
-who would ditch his guy frends there and come comfort you when u said u're sad
-who would have bubble baths with you and not get your damn dick standing up
-who would sayang you when u're crying hysterically over some assholes
-who would play fart in your face games with you and those smell my armpit games
-who would let u pluck their eye brows and practice make up on?
-who would let u paint their nails red if u want

tell me? is there anyone at all in your life willing to do all these and expect only you to be happy in return?

im blessed what more can i ask for

thanks for all the slap her back into reality talks and those learn how to treasure ppl shit =D HUGZ

thanks guys now im going to one corner and cry BUT NOT u will finish my fishballs

MWAHHAHAHAHAH

2005-11-27T03:00:00.000+08:00

yes i am up at 3 am in the morning typing this waiting for mr tan yu wen brian to pick me up for breakfast but that farker is 30 minutes late grrrrr i am gonna sew his balls and fry dem in hot oil i am having steamboat craving yes and brian promised me steamboat so by hook or by crook make sure i get my hands on some fishballs later rahh

OK my *knight in Black evo is here*

ciaoz

2005-11-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

take a step back and the picture will be clearer, dun rush into things u arent sure of, dun agree to things becos u feel the preassure in the end u will suffer not him, would he cares if you're hurt? no? would he be there to dry your tears when u're crying badly? no? would he hug u and tell u it will be alright? no? would he know how much he has hurt you by doing this? no? why would u want a guy who runs away instead of solving it? why would u want a guy who has no courage to love you?

i prefer the old you

you shi ni wu xin de zu dong jiu shi ni zhen xin de tan bai
na yi zhong gu dan de tong ku shou yi bai ju de dui bu qi dou bu neng mi bu de

love is when
she knows nths gonna change but still stands by you regardless

my 6th sense has never failed me and this time i hope im not wrong

2005-11-26T03:05:00.000+08:00

sleep over has never been so fun

you are gonna enjoy the priviledge of having 2 bootiful girls *with milked soaked cotton on their eyes*

i am typing this post with samsam sajiaoing to me clinging onto me like some koala bear

as we were lying down on the bed keeping ourselves company with the moans

baby koala suggested we talk about sex

baby koala asked mummy koala

MUMMY where do i come from

mummy: actually mumsie and pop did a few different positions but i think u popped out becos we did the koala style

some positions we did
- rolling pin
- koala style
- sajiao style
-beng & lian style that involves david lee
- too much chocolate gives u a hyper samsam style

and now we go on to our sexual fantasies

samsam:
to try all positions with just one sex partner in 2 continuous days dry some reservoir *ahem*
being able to do the zero gravity positions

edelyn:
I WANNA BE IN CHARGE =X and to try the love hug position

ok baby koala is tired she has stopped irritating me

next stunt i shall attempt to give her a necklace full of lovebites =)

2005-11-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

samsam didnt feel ok

so being a good gf i rushed to buy chocolates and took a cab to her hse to surprise her =D

thought through alot of stuff while i was on the cab
why do some ppl still hold on so tight on something that will never be again
why do some ppl care so much knowing it wun be reciprocate
why do some ppl still keep msges from them when its over keep msges KAM LAN

sometimes i wanna dig your heart and see what it says dun leave me dangling here its easy for u to say its over its not easy for me

for everything i see i think of u
for everything i do i wish it was meant for u
this feeling sucks i wanna get over it and done with

maybe i should just date brian fark

you are not me how would u understand how i feel

2005-11-25T19:07:00.000+08:00

it has always been me giving ppl massages today

i enjoyed a FULL body massage AHHHHHHH =X

pure bliss i should install the webcam and let u ppl see how heaven looks like the happiness on my face LOL

2005-11-25T05:44:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2005-11-24T18:04:00.000+08:00

trala la la la la la la la =)

im so happy so happy so happpy owwwwwwwwwwwww

ok i slept 12 hours as in sweet slumber umm B.E.A U.TIFUL dreams

ok yesterday was my darling's 16th bday so jessilyn HAPPY BDAY TO YOUUUUUUU. id see u at the bbq later hugz ok soooo yeah ahahahah

=D hee

anyway went for a drive with brian last night sighhh been a long time since i saw him bloody farker drives an evo now si be zai =X yes and we went for supper ate and ate puke and puke danced in the rain at ecp how sweet =X Lol yess feel it i was totally exhausted poor brian had to carry HEAVY HEAVY me home and ring the door bell LOOL sad i owe him one big time anyway parents knew him all my life so yes they werent surprised fark man evo first daughter second HOW CAN LIKE THAT

2005-11-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

looking in my baby's eyes I can't bare to tell her more lies . says:
im just gonna see what u've to write

no needa type much =X

just I LOVE BOBBY

looking in my baby's eyes I can't bare to tell her more lies . says:
good girls go to heaven
looking in my baby's eyes I can't bare to tell her more lies . says:
bad girls go everywhere
looking in my baby's eyes I can't bare to tell her more lies . says:
hot sExay girls
looking in my baby's eyes I can't bare to tell her more lies . says:
go to my bed
looking in my baby's eyes I can't bare to tell her more lies . says:
and end up in my pants
looking in my baby's eyes I can't bare to tell her more lies . says:
=X

the only ass who makes me smile when im feeling weird and confused the one who will catch me when i fall all the time been through all shits with me nice to me even when i sleep thru his calls, dao his sms and scolds him when he nudge me

grow

2005-11-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

(editted)

i don't love love you
i have horrible dirty lil secrets
i have had flings
i can just call and say its over bye
i give u heart attacks
im bisexual
family&cousin first frends second leo third csq fourth fun fifth shopping sixth and u last =)

so dun tell me i try to change some subject

this answers your question =)

2005-11-23T00:16:00.000+08:00

my god that day i thot i lost his ring and i got so hysterical i went searching for it around like some mad women. it was just there besides stussy and den an hour later i found it on the floor behind the table phew..

and just awhile ago i was feeling my thumb and the ring wasnt there, i thot i lost leo's ring this time i went even more hysterical i was shouting banging some doors and woke my poor mum up =X damnn and i found it by my cup AHHHHHHH thank god my tears almost roll down farktard scary shit SCARY SHIT

this teaches us not to take off the rings unnecessary until the owner takes it back

2005-11-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

its wrong to be sweet to me and u know it. shiat why do i always get such nonsense
everything feels wrong the hug feels wrong the kiss feels wrong the i care feels wrong u just dont get it when i say stop it do u?

2005-11-22T17:04:00.000+08:00

yes we spent alot of moolah yesterday

try slashing your cards till they burst

from Mango

to biotherm

and lancome MWAHHAHAH

can u FEEEEL it feeel the sweetness

*sipsip* smile

yes i cant wait for the next shopping SPREE

this time we will get

DIOR rings

swarovski bracelets

Gucci and Dior's shades

1 moncherie

1 dior addict

1 DKNY

a FEW Anna sui's product

MWHAHAHAHAH *evil laughter*

come on ppl can u FEEEEL it ahh

2005-11-21T17:55:00.000+08:00

it would be sweet if u were just that lil bit jealous over it but u weren't

2005-11-21T13:28:00.000+08:00

this sucks i am still burning fever shot up to 40 degree last night

this must have been the longest night ive to go thru waking up puking fainting bathing

leo u aint feeling well too ok so remember to take yr med dun let it turn to block nose, knowing u, u will feel damn pek chek if the block nose deprived u of your sleep =) hugz

this sucks i have been dreaming of u for the past 2 weeks please stop haunting my dreams i cant sleep thus i look tired pale fragile and dark circles are getting worse MY GOD everyday i wake up in cold sweat shouting like some mad lunatic fark, you the one i think of before i fall asleep everynight the one i have scary nightmares of the one who is depriving me of my sleep URG someone give me some sleeping pills

2005-11-20T20:31:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE HELL DO U PEOPLE THINK YOU ARE DOING?

RIPPING OUR PICTURES OFF OUR BLOGS AND SPAM IT ON IRC

WHO GIVES U THE RIGHT TO DO SO

EVEN IF ITS ON THE NET WHO THE FARK ARE U TO PASS THE LINKS AROUND

I AM NOT ONLY MAD IM AM PISSED AND DISGUSTED BY THE ACTS OF YOU

SELFISH PEOPLE

I DON'T WANT TO SEE PPL POINTING AT US ON THE STREET

2005-11-20T08:07:00.000+08:00

and yet again i did something unforgivable shiat stupid mistakes i hate dem

anyway dad cooked a spread for us today ummm too bad shalyn didnt have the chance NO LUCK ahhaha dinner was served at 7 but they happily came in at 10 which made it supper sheiz went to town after which we caught harry potter and the goblet of fire, hmm not a bad show wasnt really paying attention i was too tired and my gastric was killing me fark i really needa keep my food in sheiz, i keep puking after meals farking sick, anyway im super tired and im in a super bad mood geeez

good night

2005-11-18T20:06:00.000+08:00

URG I AM VERY JEALOUS VERY VERY JEALOUS KAN DU LAN SI BE DU LAN I WANNA TO SKIN HER ALIVE, BURN BITCH URGGGG I AM SCREAMING PULLING MY HAIR I AM GONNA TAKE A SACK PLACE IT OVER YR HEAD AND WHACK THE SHIT OUT OF U I AM GONNA MAKE USE OF MY NEWLY MASTERED SKILL IN SEWING AND SEW YR GOD DAMN FACE AND DEN SEND IT TO THE MUSEUM OF TWITS FOR DEM TO COMMENT ON YOUR STUPID ENGLISH TYPING WITH THE III AND THE MISHH AND THE EUUU AND THE DOO EUUU MISHH ME WORZ I WANNA SKIN U ALIVE

2005-11-18T18:14:00.000+08:00

when our road of love seems so wrong
i'd be there to lead u on
i want u to know that i am here for you

darling dont u be afraid
even if its the world we face
deep in my heart u barely stole my life

missing you miss since u're gone
ive been feeling blue
i still love u
take my hand and bring me back to the memories
of you and me

watching all those days goes by
the joy we had the tears we cried
deep in my heart u barely stole my life

missing you missing you since u're gone
ive been feeling blue
i still love u
take my hand and bring me back
to the memories memories of u and me

chorus x 2

2005-11-18T02:30:00.002+08:00

Some stuff girls would like to know and the answer guys give

girl: why are guys usually not content with just one girl?

guy: i guess it's because when a guy first meets a girl and likes the girl's character, he start having an interest for her, yet at the same time, he'snot absolutely sure about committing, so when he meets another girl whom he's comfortable with the interest also starts to build. perhaps as long as we haven't found that one perfect girl yet, our appetite for girls will always be insatiable

girl: how does a guy decide he likes a girl

guy: it starts with a crush on her, finding excuses just to be able to see her and be around her, and will get those butterflies in my stomach whenever she's near me. also i'd be hoping that each SMS i receive would be from her. i wouldn't be able to wait till the next time we meet again and would be counting down the days in between.

girl: why do guys like to act dumb and childish sometimes?

guy: honestly its because we want attention. usually guys do a lot more stupid things around girls especially the ones they are more interested in. i think guys do it intentionally because they want to attract attention from them specifically.

facts from seventeen magazines

2005-11-18T02:30:00.001+08:00

2005-11-18T02:30:00.000+08:00

2005-11-17T18:19:00.000+08:00

one thing about talking to your ex bfs

it will make u seem like a fool thinking about the silly things and why did u both fall in love in the first place ahhhh memories i like =D

turn back time and u would still choose me? why so stupid wanna get hurt again is it

2005-11-17T15:05:00.000+08:00

malign and lies
lay dem down on me
hurt and betrayal
thats what u gave me
you made her a fool
you made her mad
you made her feel like she was dirty
you made her cry
she scrubbed so hard
hoping the blood can cleanse her dirty soul
flirty and unworthy
is what u made of me

2005-11-17T11:56:00.000+08:00

yes i am kinda of missing charwin sheiz i wonder why ,was lying there with my darling and missing you popped into my mind

pisces are super emotions they are made up of all kinds of emotions there ever was haha.

wat does dreams means? does it show us wat we really want to see or a premonition or our greatest worries and desires hmmmm

i am not changed i am not mean i am just forcing u to say wat u really mean inside

anyway ppl have been asking me what confusing relationship i have been having due to the pictures and blah blah blah wat is sam's relation with me wat is leo's relation with me what has david got to do with me and sam and everything

actually i dun have an answer myself its something like this

sam and i? she my gf =) my lesbian partner
david is leo's frend who is after my gf and also my ex bf's gay partner
leo is my ex bf cum frend cum fling yeah watever la anyway its to messy to be described according to my ex bf it is ok to have sex with each other even wen u're not together cos its the most logic thing to do hmm weird theory but who cares

yes i am dating but i am not in love how cool is that =) it is very hard to explain what i mean by dating and not in love no stated that u can only date one guy at a time? HUH

man do i love making things confusing wat can i say im a VERY contradicting character

and here are some reasons why dating me is a bad idea

- friends and family come first
- i can cancel the appointment at the very last minute because i FEEL LIKE IT
- I can be super bitchy
-when i say no i mean no try to change my mind and u can have a taste of my big biceps
-i wun be dating u alone
-sharing is a good thing

LOL ok this post is nonsensical dun pay attention to it =D

2005-11-16T21:39:00.000+08:00

darling came over and had a talk =) sighhh im turning lesbian man lol anyway jessilyn thanks u are like behind me now on the phone scamming some asshole Lol..

she told me something that i will remember it forever.

I hate the phrase because of you , dun say because of me cause its your life =) sighhhh how did something so chim come from her mouth LOL

When i say im dating doesnt mean im in love because my heart can only hold one person at a time

2005-11-16T17:29:00.000+08:00

Male human brain turns into mush as soon as they see the pictures
they begin to fantasize, they begin to imagine
take a fancy of her body take a fancy of mine
you are stupid

i dun need to know wat your disgusting gluey brain is imagining
i dun need to know wat images of us u're picturing
it is a different kind of open minded ness as yours
just becos u cannot accept it
doesnt mean we are a disgrace

just becos your filthy brain thinks other wise
means the pictures are wat yr brain is projecting

if its porn we would be naked but let me ask u
ARE WE?

who are u to judge us? ARE u even fit too
who are u to malign us and spread false accusation about us
who are u to start those rumours who are u to interfere with our life

DO not drag our family down they didn't bring up a shameless daughter
wat is with those hurting words wat are u trying to prove?

2005-11-16T16:05:00.000+08:00

hrmph everyone is snatching my gfs GOODNESS GRACIOUS grrrrr i am a possesive gf i will not share my gfs

highest bidder 50 bucks sad.

i will deem as the one who is willing to pay the one who loves me most

2005-11-15T15:58:00.000+08:00

I am so simple

little things make me smile tsk tsk it is so easy to pacify me thats bad

2005-11-15T07:23:00.000+08:00

i wanna blog before i lose that special feeling again

call me stupid but yeah i would choose to make the mistake all over again
i never felt so much better
u were just there hugging me drying my tears listening to my rant
seeing this side of her u have never seen before
now i know why u didnt want to tell me face to face in the past
u were afraid of this

this is stupid i cried both times but only now can i blurt out those feelings inside of me

sighh

there is no way to describe how im feelings now am way too tired night ppl

2005-11-14T11:42:00.000+08:00

i have learn to appreciate family love. something that was gonna last forever

when i return home tired i get so much care i have mumsie making me honey dad picking me up asking me if i was hungry and that i had my dinner or had fun, i use to shrug these off but now i wanna spend time with dem, i wanna hug dem all and tell dem i love you, especially my brother sigh wat would i do without him.

money isnt everything money can't buy me happiness

i woke up with 50 over miss calls and smses ahahah how sweet now i have to reply dem one by one blah..

but im getting bored faster find something to entertain me

thanks cookie =) for all those advices

thanks samsam for those stay over and talks and photowhoring

thanks josh for making me feel special once again

thanks hoon,jess,and all my nuts for those smses =D but seriously i am ok la

i must say my PMS is more punctual den the mrt train sooo i am always like that before and after period relax a lil ok =) u are worrying more than i do

2005-11-13T13:46:00.000+08:00

sigh.. went out with dav der and samsam

too much memories flooding me
god take away some please
im too tired

too much premonitions

sighhhhhhhhhh

lovemenot

2005-11-12T00:52:00.000+08:00

It takes a special kind of turn on when one smell nice

i define smell nice not with cologne but with the natural smell of his shampoo his clothes i guess i like a guy who smell like home =D

2005-11-11T02:39:00.000+08:00

im sorry for all the hurtful things ive said
even after u go down on yr knees and did those silly stuff
i just wanted u to give up u are too nice and i cant bring myself to hurt u i cant..

u asked me if i would dance in the rain with u
u asked me why did i go with him and get hurt
u asked me why i didn't choose u when u could bring me happiness
u asked why is it that u know me first not him yet i loved him
u asked me if u could bring me out shopping
u asked me what my favourites are
u asked me to go with u to a concert at esplanade i said no
u asked me if i needed a ride
u asked me if ive eaten
u asked me if im ok everyday
u asked me if i wanna have supper with u everynight
u asked if i want this i wanted that

but i have never asked u back i never asked wat your fav color is i never asked wat yr fav food is i never asked if u wanna go out i never asked for the rides but why are u so nice. u are making feel damn bad u are asking for a yes but u get a NO all the time how can someone be so nice u could see thru my lies but all i could do is shun away

i am soo sorry thats all i ever know how to say when i face u

im sorry if i dun love u
im sorry i dun wanna dance with u
im sorry i shun away
im sorry i rejected u time and again
im sorry when i ignore u
im sorry for all the shit ive done

i just want u to not treat me like a gem I AM NOT i feel so heavy and loaded i feel tired and by doing all these u really aint making me feel better

2005-11-10T23:49:00.000+08:00

firstly happy birthday my dearest bestie stella =) finally your long awaited bday is here..

as i walked down those familiar hall ways i wish i had u by my side again
all those memories came flowing in and i so wished i had my laptop there so i could pen dem in
in case i lose that special moment.
i saw the esplanade i went pass city link but this time the feeling is different
i went pass the entrance and i remembered that hug so familiar yet so far away
i was so distracted all day
u just can't stop coming to my mind and invade my life

i remember u once told me when ever u receive a msg from me its means i miss u
and i wish i could send a thousand to show u how badly i do...
but wat is the point

2005-11-09T09:19:00.000+08:00

i got reminded to blog about that special moment

do u know wat makes a girl happiest? : to have the guy she loves so very much to fill her up inside

as u lay me down last night and kissed me i felt special once again
i tried to brush off that feeling and enjoy this special last moment which might be the last
but tears rolled down and i fell into silence
you kissed me and felt the tears on my face
you asked me why i was crying and i shun away
i denied the fact i was i din wan u to feel the way i felt cos it wasnt a nice feeling
as i laid on yr chest and listen to your heart beat i wish time would stop there and den
but i know it would be over in 5 mins u touched my face to see if i was crying u knew i would be.
you asked why i was crying and i told u this might be last and u asked why? this why kept me thinking what do u actually mean it is wat i want to hear or is it just a why a normal why?
i tried to forget everything i ever knew about u but u remembered everything about me, that made me feel special
i used the msn and saw that i was still in that special lil group and i felt happy i dun care if its the fact u just forgot to delete or even too lazy too.

i dunno how to act infront of u. i tried to be sweet but u were acting nonchalant about it, i tried to be mean but i can't ....

i tried to remind myself that one day u will move on with another girl i tried to remind myself its over. sometimes i hope that day will never come

im not strong enough to face it

2005-11-09T04:15:00.000+08:00

I had a stayover at samsam's again its like a ritual now like 3 times a week i can be found there
maybe for the fact she takes my stress away and YES i found someone who shares my passion and interest in taking weird pictures. some which many will misunderstand, my brother told me porn and art is only * yi4 xian3 zhi1 cha1*

This time we had clothes on

i adore the sunrise and i always get to see it wen we have sleep overs

corpse school girls we are

of cos u need brushes to apply. all we used were 2 brushes one for the eye shadow one for the eye liner

And voila

yes i love kissing her u got a prob with that?

and we did the ultimate zai thing we frenched

We tried to be sadako

but failed miserably

samsam has a new fetish * biting monkeys*

we tried to act as twits but failed miserably

pardon the nasty messy hair i just woke up

looking bitchy is our forte

samsam makes me high i just can't resist her

owww foreplay

she rode my back

and i decided that i should be in charge

and she loved it that way

we got so tired

we took a break

and another

played the laptop for awhile

samsam got high again

but decided to take a smoke break

the smoke maked me puke

it makes one breatheless it cause an asthma attack

and den OH SHIT

WE HAD OUR PERIODS AT THE SAME TIME

and i realize my shalyn has it too ALL ON THE SAME DAY

Ok sorry i shall edit it tomorrow or something i am too tired my brain aint functioning properly

2005-11-09T00:43:00.000+08:00

haha leo's on the plane now =D ok at least he msged me before he got on awwww =(

anyway i will SO BLOG about wat me and sam did just now

anyway the stay over was great we had truck loads of pics fell asleep at 9 and woke up at 7 pm HOW SWEET 10 hours ahhaha umm i still feel tired

2005-11-08T07:49:00.000+08:00

samsam is gonna attempt to sew my fingers now god bless me

i like nothing better than hugging him
sigh..thanks leo
it should have been one month today

Bon voyage hugz

2005-11-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

i have never been so happy in a long time.. and wen i woke up i woke up with a smile sighhh =)